Authored: October 3, 2023

To go back to those moments and cherished them.
As if it were your last
Even though they were your last
I can’t help it but wonder,
“What if”.

What if I didn’t go with them?
What if I stayed with those two friends?
What if I never took his steps?
What if….

You can’t just keep repeating the same thing over and over,
It already happened,
And you can’t change the fact
That you went and did it..
What for?

Not sure,
We were all up in the moment,
We didn’t think twice,
Or probably we did,
But just told our self-nothing would happen,
But we got to the point where we asked ourselves.
“What if”..
It’s now your future self-problem,
Which is now.

I've spent much of my 'life' being dead.
I've wandered through the hollow rabble of humanity,
I've gone to the darkest realms of the soul as well as a few forays into the happier states of existence.
I've spent countless hours staring up at the night sky that looked back at me with the same blank expression,
Always asking the universe, "Why?'