Authored: November 15, 2020

The loss of value in valour
Coming home, I felt forlorn
In sleep I dream of the dead
That we killed.

How am I to lead a normal life?
When all I can remember is the dead
I don't deserve this peace
So, I push away my wife and my child.

Dreams turn into a nightmare
My hands in dreams are red with blood
And dying eyes reach out to me
'Fuck, what've I done?!"

I'm broken
Months pass and my family is broken, I'm all alone
I drink, I take drugs just to try to forget
I want peace - just for a moment
I'm sorry

I just can't forget
They were someone's family, loved one
Lives taken
Forgive me!

I take the gun one night in bed
Place it to my forehead
I want peace....